I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you’re not around,
and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
not even close…
not even a little bit…
not even at all.
[An extract from the romantic comedy “10 Things U Hate About U”
It has never been like this
not quite sure of what i want
don’t know what more that i need to do,
feels like a soul devoid of life;
one moment my joy knew no bounds,
a new beginning is what i got,
a new meaning to a lonely existence,
i was happy;
as reality dawned on me,
i felt my happiness come crashing down,
all in one big thud, i wondered
if my luck was anything but bad;
i try to find a reason,
i try to find a cure,
i tried all that was possible,
but it feels as if my life has come to a standstill;
i don’t want to give up,
i don’t want to cave in so easily,
so i am desperately plotting my revenge
against a life that has become mundane;
(and take control of it once and for all
before i lose my sanity and question my very existence
I sit here with a smile on my face,
I smile as I breathe in deep,
I smile as I close my eyes
and I smile all day long;
the sky is dark,
as the freezing winds
seep into my bones,
I sit here smiling silently cold and empty;
I wait here frozen in time,
with my dreams torn apart,
my heart encased in a tomb,
I smile to mask my true emotions;
smile is all that I do day in and day out,
the mask that I wear is so perfect,
one needs to come a lot closer,
to see the tears trickling down my eyes;
the days are long,
the nights longer still.
I try to find the light,
but find comfort only in the dark;
emotions swell inside,
walking on a broken path,
I look up for the rainbow
hoping that one day I will get off
this broken path and onto a new one;
It’s the middle of the night, my eyes stare into nothingness,
Hoping to find some light, peering into the vastly blackness,
Not sure what to do next, questions flooding my consciousness,
Tiny pins of needle pricking my heart, leaving me breathless.
Reality slowly creeping in, numbing me it is time to let go,
To move on away from you to some far place I dont know.
Loving you has not been easy neither is breaking up with you,
Knowing you have someone else tells me what I should do.
So many things left undone and words unspoken,
Dreams has been shattered, promises has been broken,
Years spent in sweet togetherness suddenly apart,
Time is not enough to mend my ailing heart.
Teach me how to be brave so I can live a life without you,
Place a soft tune in my head and a smile in my heart too,
Help me raise my chin up high so I can face the world again,
Hope flicker in my heart as I look into the future one more time.
If I could be young once again
I would have sooner met you
and all that would have remained
is the love I have for you
If I could have just shown you
how much you mean to me
then I could have died happily
with the tears of joy in me
If I could have been your knight
brave and donned in shining armour
then I would have been your princess
and not as your friend anymore
If I could have been a stranger
and not as myself to you
then I might have had the courage
to say wholeheartedly I love you
If I could have lived my life
then you could have seen me through
because all that I had ever did
was for you to love me too
If I could have just seen tomorrow
I would have jumped ahead of time
because today it might have not ended
and today you might have been mine
The sun rises once again,
Awakening me from the calm of night before,
Where I could hear nothing but the sound of silence,
Where I could feel nothing but the breathing of my soul,
With the majesty of the morning sun,
Comes with it the sorrows of my life,
Where the realities of losing you haunts me,
Where the shadows of the past taunts me,
Cries of mine to you to return,
Falls upon the grounds below,
Like the autumn leaves which drops from the tree up above,
Like the droplets of rain from the clouds beyond reach,
The woe within my heart,
Hides between the shadows of the dark,
Praying for the night,
For it all to go away again.
Rain drops falling in my head,
and never knowing when it will end.
Should I run for cover,
or let another rain drop fall in my head again?
I would love to dance in the rain,
and knowing somehow it’ll help erase the pain.
Sometimes when I’m all alone,
and I see rain drops are falling outside again.
There’s happiness that I feel because rain is here once again.
Some may feels gloomy when it rains
and some just want to feel it in their hand.
But me I just love it when rain drops falls into my face.
Oh the magic that rain brings, it makes you feel unique.
It may bring you sadness, wet feeling in toes and clothes
but I just see happiness when it rains.
The grey sky looming above, rain drops still dripping down from the pregnant clouds above, we set out on our journey once again; around and around we go in slow circles, moving to the beat of the thunder and rain that surrounds us; as the droplets hit the ground, shattered realizations lay scattered reminding me nothing is same as it seems to be; as another memory turns to dust i cut the lifeline that attaches me to the past and i shove it back into the depths where nothing will ever bring it back alive; the rain does nothing to stop our journey, never forgetting, who we are we walk these streets of madness, knowing that,without each-other….. we are simply incomplete.
My darkened heart
Thought it’d never see the day
But your love began to part
The shadow looming gray
Our young love
Is like a bird and nest
In morning parts the dove
But flies back by night to rest
Every moment growing
Knowing not its bound
Neither of us knowing
The ship would run aground
But like the sun
Rising to light the earth
All too soon the day is done
Its death is in its birth
My poor heart
Finally saw the day
All too soon we had to part
And all that’s left is gray
Thinking of the past days
i can tell u in many ways
my heart has not in it fears
but simple heart-breaking tears.
i cannot tell u how it is
those were the days i surely miss!!
stars that shone in my eyes
but now in wind as true lies
life is never favorable friend
never can i mend
the broken pieces of our friendship plate
no use of saying its too late
months and days have passed away
again in my heart a bright sun ray
talking about past days are useless and in vain
in the lonely streets i am searching for u again
days flow away my friend
no more feelings i can send
once again in the sands of the sea
I’ll be looking for the eyes that once watched me
I cried all night until morning came.
i’ll surely find the strength to start walking.
i guess the sun has risen to conceal my heart
because soon the darkness will certainly grow bright.
truly everyone wants to grant a wish but sometimes
it doesn’t go the way you want.
if i collect fragments of hope in the palm of my hand,
i can change them into wonderful joy.
My friends and loved ones give me courage
and i’m holding tight to those words
but the final answerone i must find by myself.
continuing forth for tomorrow.
my feelings are undefeated by the rainand passes through the flame.
i want to persist that strongly
and so someday
even when it seems everything is falling apart.
can’t sleep at night cause i wanna be with you.
don’t want to live,
don’t want to cry
without you by my side.
when i go to sleep at night,
i ask God to make my days bright.
i know he will do it
and i know it is true.
because he knows i only want to be with you.
i hear your voice inside my head.
i can imagine us together again.i
know it will happen.
I know it is true
because i asked God
if i can be with you.
i see you and i together again.
Holding hands and feeling the pain.
what a beautiful feeling……
i wish it were true…
………………but i am only dreaming – dreaming of you…….
I’m hurt all the time.
I don’t want to cry for the way I feel inside.
I just want someone to hold me…
I’m alone in the dark, please try to find me.
If no one cares, I don’t see a point to go on.
Anyone find me! Anyone care!
I’m sorry, I just don’t want to be alone anymore.
I feel unheard and unseen. Depressed and weak.
No one cares and yet I’m always the sorry one.
Someone find me! I’m scared.
Please hold me until it all ends.
Just hold me that’s all I want.
I don’t want to be alone in the dark.
Just hold me as I start to disappear from the light.
Just hold me as I start to cry.
Just hold me so I wont be alone inside.
Just hold me so I don’t do something wrong.
Just hold me so tight, that for a moment I could feel the light….
Kinda lose your sense of time
Cause the days don’t matter no more
All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside
You hope he knows you tried
thoughts Follow you around all day
And you wake up soaking wet
Cause between this world and eternity
There is a face you hope to see
You’ve been walking around in tears
No answers are there to get
You won’t ever be the same
Someone cries and you’re to blame
Struggling with a fight inside
Sorrow you’ll defeat
The picture you see it won’t disappear
Not unpleasant dreams or his voice you hear
You know where you’ve sent him
You sure know where you are
You’re trying to ease off
But you know you won’t get far
And now he’s up there
Sings like an angel
But you can’t hear those words..
The time has changed a lot….
The situation has changed a lot..
Can’t forget the days when
We used to laugh on silly things…
We used to share the most silent things and the most secret ones….
Neither you are same now nor me
but there will be one thing which will always remain the same
“the care and love on you”
just want to say
i really miss u a lot…