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10 things I Hate About U



I hate the way you talk to me, 

and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car, 

I hate it when you stare. 

I hate your big dumb combat boots 

and the way you read my mind. 

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme. 

I hate the way you’re always right, 

I hate it when you lie. 

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry. 

I hate it when you’re not around, 

and the fact that you didn’t call. 

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you, 

not even close…

not even a little bit… 

not even at all. 

 

[An extract from the romantic comedy “10 Things U Hate About U” 

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Finding Me Again

We were together for many years
We became as one
It was like I had your blood running through my veins
We could read each others thoughts
Finish each others sentences 
Without saying a word 
There is so much I’d like to change
But I can’t turn back the hands of time
Your memory will always be apart of me and my heart
I still talk to you 
And wonder if you hear
Sometimes I can feel you near
Even in my dreams
My heart can’t say good-bye
For it’s afraid your memory will die
A part of my heart is with you
And it’s yours to keep
Now that you are gone
I’m left to stand alone..

Life Is At A Standstill

It has never been like this
not quite sure of what i want 
don’t know what more that i need to do, 
feels like a soul devoid of life;

one moment my joy knew no bounds, 
a new beginning is what i got, 
a new meaning to a lonely existence, 
i was happy;

as reality dawned on me, 
i felt my happiness come crashing down, 
all in one big thud, i wondered 
if my luck was anything but bad;

i try to find a reason, 
i try to find a cure, 
i tried all that was possible, 
but it feels as if my life has come to a standstill;

i don’t want to give up, 
i don’t want to cave in so easily, 
so i am desperately plotting my revenge 
against a life that has become mundane; 
(and take control of it once and for all 
before i lose my sanity and question my very existence

A Broken Smile

I sit here with a smile on my face, 
I smile as I breathe in deep, 
I smile as I close my eyes 
and I smile all day long;

the sky is dark, 
as the freezing winds 
seep into my bones, 
I sit here smiling silently cold and empty;

I wait here frozen in time, 
with my dreams torn apart, 
my heart encased in a tomb, 
I smile to mask my true emotions;

smile is all that I do day in and day out, 
the mask that I wear is so perfect, 
one needs to come a lot closer, 
to see the tears trickling down my eyes;

the days are long, 
the nights longer still. 
I try to find the light, 
but find comfort only in the dark;

emotions swell inside, 
walking on a broken path, 
I look up for the rainbow 
hoping that one day I will get off 
this broken path and onto a new one;

Teach Me

It’s the middle of the night, my eyes stare into nothingness, 
Hoping to find some light, peering into the vastly blackness, 
Not sure what to do next, questions flooding my consciousness, 
Tiny pins of needle pricking my heart, leaving me breathless.

Reality slowly creeping in, numbing me it is time to let go, 
To move on away from you to some far place I dont know. 
Loving you has not been easy neither is breaking up with you, 
Knowing you have someone else tells me what I should do.

So many things left undone and words unspoken, 
Dreams has been shattered, promises has been broken, 
Years spent in sweet togetherness suddenly apart, 
Time is not enough to mend my ailing heart.

Teach me how to be brave so I can live a life without you, 
Place a soft tune in my head and a smile in my heart too, 
Help me raise my chin up high so I can face the world again, 
Hope flicker in my heart as I look into the future one more time.

My Love After U

The sun rises once again, 
Awakening me from the calm of night before, 
Where I could hear nothing but the sound of silence, 
Where I could feel nothing but the breathing of my soul,

With the majesty of the morning sun, 
Comes with it the sorrows of my life, 
Where the realities of losing you haunts me, 
Where the shadows of the past taunts me,

Cries of mine to you to return, 
Falls upon the grounds below, 
Like the autumn leaves which drops from the tree up above, 
Like the droplets of rain from the clouds beyond reach,

The woe within my heart, 
Hides between the shadows of the dark, 
Praying for the night, 
For it all to go away again.

A Tear On My Pillow

When I lay and think, in my bed at night, 
the day you’ll arrive, seems nowhere in sight. 
I toss and I turn, dreaming of you, 
opening my eye’s… checking if my dream came true. 
It didn’t, again, and a tear starts to roll, 
weeping quietly… my pillow I hold.

Many sleepless nights I’ve prayed for you, my love. 
God touched my soul from heaven above 
I’ve never felt this lucky, God did this for me. 
That’s a question I asked each and every night.

He must think your special, Joy, and I know he’s right. 
No other has made me feel so complete, 
my whole life was lived, just so we could meet. 
All these thoughts and more going through my head. 
I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you… instead

 

Am also human

People often ask me
How I always smile
Don’t I have ant worries?
Don’t I ever cry
But they are only the fools
Forget and always ignore
That I’m also a human
And I also have the feelings
They always give me company
They always laugh with me
I always make them happy
And always make them smile
But they never had the feeling
That I have a wounded heart..

Longing for the “us” again

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These days I´m walking the halls of imagination
and those hallways sometimes bring me back in those nights,
late hours and every night is long.so there is alot of time to shed a tear
and i don´t know why i still write to you.i don´t know why
i still breathe for you.
i sleep you.
i dream of you,
all is the same like before,just you are not there!
this feeling of yours,this love that anxiety,
i confess,
it doesn´t work to stop thinking and compare,
we were not like everybody else.
its not that it ´s not worth it,every sleepless night proves it.
but don´t think that i ask anything of you.
you said yourself,the time will change us
and life makes scenes and man makes mistakes.
Whose fault it is,it doesn´t matter.i don´t go further by foot.
i did anything, but it´s what i wanted to do and maybe i really shouldn´t have.
maybe i mustn’t have to treat you that way but the heart is blind
and i don´t feel sorry for it.even though it was hard.
maybe everyone is right,when they say it was a wrong way.
but to me only with you it was right like that.
i know, everything dissapears and this what we had stopped.
but you still remain-now and forever!
if it was to happen again,for us to meet
I won´t be the same like before.
it would maybe be better.
We learnt something perhaps from the previous relationship……..

Falling apart

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I cried all night until morning came.

i’ll surely find the strength to start walking.

i guess the sun has risen to conceal my heart

because soon the darkness will certainly grow bright.

truly everyone wants to grant a wish but sometimes

it doesn’t go the way you want.

if i collect fragments of hope in the palm of my hand,

i can change them into wonderful joy.

My friends and loved ones give me courage

and i’m holding tight to those words

but the final answerone i must find by myself.

continuing forth for tomorrow.

my feelings are undefeated by the rainand passes through the flame.

i want to persist that strongly

and so someday

even when it seems everything is falling apart.

Dreaming of u

When I close my eyes i dream of you

can’t sleep at night cause i wanna be with you.

don’t want to live,

don’t want to cry

without you by my side.

when i go to sleep at night,

i ask God to make my days bright.

i know he will do it

and i know it is true.

because he knows i only want to be with you.

i hear your voice inside my head.

i can imagine us together again.i

know it will happen.

I know it is true

because i asked God

if i can be with you.

i see you and i together again.

Holding hands and feeling the pain.

what a beautiful feeling……

i wish it were true…

………………but i am only dreaming – dreaming of you…….

Till i find u

Stripped of my comfort,
I have no place to sleep.
Confused with anxiety,
I can only weep.

Why did this happen?
Oh why is it me?
I don’t know what to do,
This time, I can’t flee.

With no where to run,
I think I’ll lay down.
Only for a bit,
Until the day I’m found.

The color of Pain

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If ever the weep of silence
That echoes inside my heart
You have heard,
If ever you have known
The loneliness that accompanies me,

If ever the color of pain
That tinges my tears crystal
You have seen,
If ever you have felt
How emptiness fills my heart –

Ask sky,
Ask sky what it feels to love!

Angel

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Kinda lose your sense of time
Cause the days don’t matter no more
All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside
You hope he knows you tried

thoughts Follow you around all day
And you wake up soaking wet
Cause between this world and eternity
There is a face you hope to see

You’ve been walking around in tears
No answers are there to get
You won’t ever be the same
Someone cries and you’re to blame

Struggling with a fight inside
Sorrow you’ll defeat
The picture you see it won’t disappear
Not unpleasant dreams or his voice you hear

You know where you’ve sent him
You sure know where you are
You’re trying to ease off
But you know you won’t get far
And now he’s up there
Sings like an angel
But you can’t hear those words..

Trying to speak My heart. . .

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Days Pass By Somehow..

But Nights Now Are A Wagon Of Pain.

Injuries May Heal With Time..

But Marks Will Always Remain.

Restless On My Comfortable Bed..

I Toss n Turn n Try To Sleep.

But Thoughts Are Bulking My Head..

And Have Formed A Huge Heap.

The Past Is Flashing Its Scorching Light Beams..

Tearing Me Apart…Breaking Me At The Seams.

The Darkness Of My Life Is More Visible In The Dark..

And Now I’m Trying To Give It A Voice…

Trying To Speak My Heart!

Missing u. . .

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The time has changed a lot….

The situation has changed a lot..

Can’t forget the days when

We used to laugh on silly things…

We used to share the most silent things and the most secret ones….

Neither you are same now nor me

but there will be one thing which will always remain the same

“the care and love on you”

just want to say

i really miss u a lot…