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Finding Me Again

We were together for many years
We became as one
It was like I had your blood running through my veins
We could read each others thoughts
Finish each others sentences 
Without saying a word 
There is so much I’d like to change
But I can’t turn back the hands of time
Your memory will always be apart of me and my heart
I still talk to you 
And wonder if you hear
Sometimes I can feel you near
Even in my dreams
My heart can’t say good-bye
For it’s afraid your memory will die
A part of my heart is with you
And it’s yours to keep
Now that you are gone
I’m left to stand alone..

Lose Myself

prisoner of love

What am i supposed to to?
after all that i have been through
when everything else had been banished
like a fog, it slowly creeped inside me once again!

can’t find the reason to keep holding on
don’t know how long i can keep going on
like this, hiding everything neatly tucked inside
smiling falsely and proving nothing.

change is inevitable,
thoughts of you now 
crawling inside me
like never before.

right when i thought
there’s nothing else left
seeds of love were
sown deep inside me!

once a barren land
your presence, your thoughts
transformed it into a garden
now teeming with life

now teeming with thoughts of you,
i try to find a reason to hold on,
to delay the inevitable!
when love has won the war,
i have lost the battle to you!
i am lost under your spell
and i am losing myself everyday!

Teach Me

It’s the middle of the night, my eyes stare into nothingness, 
Hoping to find some light, peering into the vastly blackness, 
Not sure what to do next, questions flooding my consciousness, 
Tiny pins of needle pricking my heart, leaving me breathless.

Reality slowly creeping in, numbing me it is time to let go, 
To move on away from you to some far place I dont know. 
Loving you has not been easy neither is breaking up with you, 
Knowing you have someone else tells me what I should do.

So many things left undone and words unspoken, 
Dreams has been shattered, promises has been broken, 
Years spent in sweet togetherness suddenly apart, 
Time is not enough to mend my ailing heart.

Teach me how to be brave so I can live a life without you, 
Place a soft tune in my head and a smile in my heart too, 
Help me raise my chin up high so I can face the world again, 
Hope flicker in my heart as I look into the future one more time.

My Love After U

The sun rises once again, 
Awakening me from the calm of night before, 
Where I could hear nothing but the sound of silence, 
Where I could feel nothing but the breathing of my soul,

With the majesty of the morning sun, 
Comes with it the sorrows of my life, 
Where the realities of losing you haunts me, 
Where the shadows of the past taunts me,

Cries of mine to you to return, 
Falls upon the grounds below, 
Like the autumn leaves which drops from the tree up above, 
Like the droplets of rain from the clouds beyond reach,

The woe within my heart, 
Hides between the shadows of the dark, 
Praying for the night, 
For it all to go away again.

A Tear On My Pillow

When I lay and think, in my bed at night, 
the day you’ll arrive, seems nowhere in sight. 
I toss and I turn, dreaming of you, 
opening my eye’s… checking if my dream came true. 
It didn’t, again, and a tear starts to roll, 
weeping quietly… my pillow I hold.

Many sleepless nights I’ve prayed for you, my love. 
God touched my soul from heaven above 
I’ve never felt this lucky, God did this for me. 
That’s a question I asked each and every night.

He must think your special, Joy, and I know he’s right. 
No other has made me feel so complete, 
my whole life was lived, just so we could meet. 
All these thoughts and more going through my head. 
I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you… instead

 

Longing for the “us” again

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These days I´m walking the halls of imagination
and those hallways sometimes bring me back in those nights,
late hours and every night is long.so there is alot of time to shed a tear
and i don´t know why i still write to you.i don´t know why
i still breathe for you.
i sleep you.
i dream of you,
all is the same like before,just you are not there!
this feeling of yours,this love that anxiety,
i confess,
it doesn´t work to stop thinking and compare,
we were not like everybody else.
its not that it ´s not worth it,every sleepless night proves it.
but don´t think that i ask anything of you.
you said yourself,the time will change us
and life makes scenes and man makes mistakes.
Whose fault it is,it doesn´t matter.i don´t go further by foot.
i did anything, but it´s what i wanted to do and maybe i really shouldn´t have.
maybe i mustn’t have to treat you that way but the heart is blind
and i don´t feel sorry for it.even though it was hard.
maybe everyone is right,when they say it was a wrong way.
but to me only with you it was right like that.
i know, everything dissapears and this what we had stopped.
but you still remain-now and forever!
if it was to happen again,for us to meet
I won´t be the same like before.
it would maybe be better.
We learnt something perhaps from the previous relationship……..

Falling apart

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I cried all night until morning came.

i’ll surely find the strength to start walking.

i guess the sun has risen to conceal my heart

because soon the darkness will certainly grow bright.

truly everyone wants to grant a wish but sometimes

it doesn’t go the way you want.

if i collect fragments of hope in the palm of my hand,

i can change them into wonderful joy.

My friends and loved ones give me courage

and i’m holding tight to those words

but the final answerone i must find by myself.

continuing forth for tomorrow.

my feelings are undefeated by the rainand passes through the flame.

i want to persist that strongly

and so someday

even when it seems everything is falling apart.