I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you’re not around,
and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
not even close…
not even a little bit…
not even at all.
[An extract from the romantic comedy “10 Things U Hate About U”
It’s the middle of the night, my eyes stare into nothingness,
Hoping to find some light, peering into the vastly blackness,
Not sure what to do next, questions flooding my consciousness,
Tiny pins of needle pricking my heart, leaving me breathless.
Reality slowly creeping in, numbing me it is time to let go,
To move on away from you to some far place I dont know.
Loving you has not been easy neither is breaking up with you,
Knowing you have someone else tells me what I should do.
So many things left undone and words unspoken,
Dreams has been shattered, promises has been broken,
Years spent in sweet togetherness suddenly apart,
Time is not enough to mend my ailing heart.
Teach me how to be brave so I can live a life without you,
Place a soft tune in my head and a smile in my heart too,
Help me raise my chin up high so I can face the world again,
Hope flicker in my heart as I look into the future one more time.
The sun rises once again,
Awakening me from the calm of night before,
Where I could hear nothing but the sound of silence,
Where I could feel nothing but the breathing of my soul,
With the majesty of the morning sun,
Comes with it the sorrows of my life,
Where the realities of losing you haunts me,
Where the shadows of the past taunts me,
Cries of mine to you to return,
Falls upon the grounds below,
Like the autumn leaves which drops from the tree up above,
Like the droplets of rain from the clouds beyond reach,
The woe within my heart,
Hides between the shadows of the dark,
Praying for the night,
For it all to go away again.
Rain fell last night…quiet, gentle rain,
that tapped against my window pane,
and called me back from troubled sleep,
to soothe a heart too numb to weep.
My loneliness was too deep and real,
and like a wound that would not heal,
it throbbed within me, and I knew
my arms were empty without you.
But as I listened to the sound
of soft rain falling on the ground,
I heard your voice, tender and clear,
Call my name, and oh my dear,
I threw my window open wide,
to let the sweet rain rush inside.
It kissed my lips, my eyes, my hair,
and love, I knew that you were there.
Tears that my heart could not release
Fell down from Heaven, bringing peace.
Last night while gray clouds softly wept,
I held you in my arms and slept.
I try to clap but there’s only one hand
I try to run, but with one leg I dare not stand
My eyes are open, but I cannot see
Because my other half is not next to me
I reach out at nights but there’s no one to hold
I touch your side of bed and it feels so cold
I sit down to a meal but I can barely eat
Because the purpose of sharing has faced defeat
My darkened heart
Thought it’d never see the day
But your love began to part
The shadow looming gray
Our young love
Is like a bird and nest
In morning parts the dove
But flies back by night to rest
Every moment growing
Knowing not its bound
Neither of us knowing
The ship would run aground
But like the sun
Rising to light the earth
All too soon the day is done
Its death is in its birth
My poor heart
Finally saw the day
All too soon we had to part
And all that’s left is gray
can’t sleep at night cause i wanna be with you.
don’t want to live,
don’t want to cry
without you by my side.
when i go to sleep at night,
i ask God to make my days bright.
i know he will do it
and i know it is true.
because he knows i only want to be with you.
i hear your voice inside my head.
i can imagine us together again.i
know it will happen.
I know it is true
because i asked God
if i can be with you.
i see you and i together again.
Holding hands and feeling the pain.
what a beautiful feeling……
i wish it were true…
………………but i am only dreaming – dreaming of you…….
I’m hurt all the time.
I don’t want to cry for the way I feel inside.
I just want someone to hold me…
I’m alone in the dark, please try to find me.
If no one cares, I don’t see a point to go on.
Anyone find me! Anyone care!
I’m sorry, I just don’t want to be alone anymore.
I feel unheard and unseen. Depressed and weak.
No one cares and yet I’m always the sorry one.
Someone find me! I’m scared.
Please hold me until it all ends.
Just hold me that’s all I want.
I don’t want to be alone in the dark.
Just hold me as I start to disappear from the light.
Just hold me as I start to cry.
Just hold me so I wont be alone inside.
Just hold me so I don’t do something wrong.
Just hold me so tight, that for a moment I could feel the light….
If ever the weep of silence
That echoes inside my heart
You have heard,
If ever you have known
The loneliness that accompanies me,
If ever the color of pain
That tinges my tears crystal
You have seen,
If ever you have felt
How emptiness fills my heart –
Ask sky what it feels to love!
Days Pass By Somehow..
But Nights Now Are A Wagon Of Pain.
Injuries May Heal With Time..
But Marks Will Always Remain.
Restless On My Comfortable Bed..
I Toss n Turn n Try To Sleep.
But Thoughts Are Bulking My Head..
And Have Formed A Huge Heap.
The Past Is Flashing Its Scorching Light Beams..
Tearing Me Apart…Breaking Me At The Seams.
The Darkness Of My Life Is More Visible In The Dark..
And Now I’m Trying To Give It A Voice…
Trying To Speak My Heart!
The only thing I can see through the window is thick rain drops piercing down on my conscious.
I stay in the middle of my bed curled up and trying to shield myself from the unknown.
I feel like it is never going to shine and never going to stop raining.
The night seems restless and everlasting.
A loud Roar of wind comes crashing down on my window.
I feel that it’s trying to get inside and take me away.
Why can’t this night end soon?!
I’m utterly alone in confining myself to this prison called home.
I’m in solitude that has despair written all around it.
There’s no where else to turn.
Desperate for this night to be over.
I’m daring the sun to come out,
But it doesn’t.
My ears catch every rain drop that falls, while my eyes are blinded shut by darkness.
I stay curled in my fragile state, wishing for this dreadful night to end.
There’s no peaked window that is not surrounded by the pitch black darkness of the night.
There’s no opening of light to which my skin feels warmth.
There’s no crystal clear view, only the solitary confinement which I’m in.
I have nothing else to do but sit and wait.
Quietly crunched in my bed, waiting for darkness to fade into the sunlight.
I will wait!
Trying to contain my thoughts in silence.
I must simply wait…..In hopes that I will not fade within the darkness.