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My Love After U

The sun rises once again, 
Awakening me from the calm of night before, 
Where I could hear nothing but the sound of silence, 
Where I could feel nothing but the breathing of my soul,

With the majesty of the morning sun, 
Comes with it the sorrows of my life, 
Where the realities of losing you haunts me, 
Where the shadows of the past taunts me,

Cries of mine to you to return, 
Falls upon the grounds below, 
Like the autumn leaves which drops from the tree up above, 
Like the droplets of rain from the clouds beyond reach,

The woe within my heart, 
Hides between the shadows of the dark, 
Praying for the night, 
For it all to go away again.

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All My Life

It was not so long ago 
when I thought I’d never meet someone like you. 
Wrong was I, thinking I’m in control 
Believing I’d never fall.

All my life I thought no one would 
melt a heart like mine, a heart so cold, 
a heart hardened by the past, 
protected by shields so vast.

Slowly I was falling 
without even knowing. 
Only to find out too late 
I have no choice but to accept my fate.

I could dream, I suppose 
forever, I could hope 
there will never be any ‘us’, that’s our destiny 
so I wake up to reality.

I lied when I said 
I didn’t love you, 
that my feelings for you 
are through.

I lied 
not because I wanted to 
but because I love you 
and I still do.

I wouldn’t do a thing to hurt you 
but I just have to let go. 
I can’t hold on much longer 
‘coz for us there’s no forever.

Longing for the “us” again

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These days I´m walking the halls of imagination
and those hallways sometimes bring me back in those nights,
late hours and every night is long.so there is alot of time to shed a tear
and i don´t know why i still write to you.i don´t know why
i still breathe for you.
i sleep you.
i dream of you,
all is the same like before,just you are not there!
this feeling of yours,this love that anxiety,
i confess,
it doesn´t work to stop thinking and compare,
we were not like everybody else.
its not that it ´s not worth it,every sleepless night proves it.
but don´t think that i ask anything of you.
you said yourself,the time will change us
and life makes scenes and man makes mistakes.
Whose fault it is,it doesn´t matter.i don´t go further by foot.
i did anything, but it´s what i wanted to do and maybe i really shouldn´t have.
maybe i mustn’t have to treat you that way but the heart is blind
and i don´t feel sorry for it.even though it was hard.
maybe everyone is right,when they say it was a wrong way.
but to me only with you it was right like that.
i know, everything dissapears and this what we had stopped.
but you still remain-now and forever!
if it was to happen again,for us to meet
I won´t be the same like before.
it would maybe be better.
We learnt something perhaps from the previous relationship……..

Falling apart

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I cried all night until morning came.

i’ll surely find the strength to start walking.

i guess the sun has risen to conceal my heart

because soon the darkness will certainly grow bright.

truly everyone wants to grant a wish but sometimes

it doesn’t go the way you want.

if i collect fragments of hope in the palm of my hand,

i can change them into wonderful joy.

My friends and loved ones give me courage

and i’m holding tight to those words

but the final answerone i must find by myself.

continuing forth for tomorrow.

my feelings are undefeated by the rainand passes through the flame.

i want to persist that strongly

and so someday

even when it seems everything is falling apart.

Dreaming of u

When I close my eyes i dream of you

can’t sleep at night cause i wanna be with you.

don’t want to live,

don’t want to cry

without you by my side.

when i go to sleep at night,

i ask God to make my days bright.

i know he will do it

and i know it is true.

because he knows i only want to be with you.

i hear your voice inside my head.

i can imagine us together again.i

know it will happen.

I know it is true

because i asked God

if i can be with you.

i see you and i together again.

Holding hands and feeling the pain.

what a beautiful feeling……

i wish it were true…

………………but i am only dreaming – dreaming of you…….

Till i find u

Stripped of my comfort,
I have no place to sleep.
Confused with anxiety,
I can only weep.

Why did this happen?
Oh why is it me?
I don’t know what to do,
This time, I can’t flee.

With no where to run,
I think I’ll lay down.
Only for a bit,
Until the day I’m found.

Find my light

I’m hurt all the time.
I don’t want to cry for the way I feel inside.
I just want someone to hold me…
I’m alone in the dark, please try to find me.
If no one cares, I don’t see a point to go on.
Anyone find me! Anyone care!
I’m sorry, I just don’t want to be alone anymore.
I feel unheard and unseen. Depressed and weak.
No one cares and yet I’m always the sorry one.
Someone find me! I’m scared.
Please hold me until it all ends.
Just hold me that’s all I want.
I don’t want to be alone in the dark.
Just hold me as I start to disappear from the light.
Just hold me as I start to cry.
Just hold me so I wont be alone inside.
Just hold me so I don’t do something wrong.
Just hold me so tight, that for a moment I could feel the light….

The color of Pain

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If ever the weep of silence
That echoes inside my heart
You have heard,
If ever you have known
The loneliness that accompanies me,

If ever the color of pain
That tinges my tears crystal
You have seen,
If ever you have felt
How emptiness fills my heart –

Ask sky,
Ask sky what it feels to love!

Angel

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Kinda lose your sense of time
Cause the days don’t matter no more
All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside
You hope he knows you tried

thoughts Follow you around all day
And you wake up soaking wet
Cause between this world and eternity
There is a face you hope to see

You’ve been walking around in tears
No answers are there to get
You won’t ever be the same
Someone cries and you’re to blame

Struggling with a fight inside
Sorrow you’ll defeat
The picture you see it won’t disappear
Not unpleasant dreams or his voice you hear

You know where you’ve sent him
You sure know where you are
You’re trying to ease off
But you know you won’t get far
And now he’s up there
Sings like an angel
But you can’t hear those words..

Trying to speak My heart. . .

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Days Pass By Somehow..

But Nights Now Are A Wagon Of Pain.

Injuries May Heal With Time..

But Marks Will Always Remain.

Restless On My Comfortable Bed..

I Toss n Turn n Try To Sleep.

But Thoughts Are Bulking My Head..

And Have Formed A Huge Heap.

The Past Is Flashing Its Scorching Light Beams..

Tearing Me Apart…Breaking Me At The Seams.

The Darkness Of My Life Is More Visible In The Dark..

And Now I’m Trying To Give It A Voice…

Trying To Speak My Heart!

Missing u. . .

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The time has changed a lot….

The situation has changed a lot..

Can’t forget the days when

We used to laugh on silly things…

We used to share the most silent things and the most secret ones….

Neither you are same now nor me

but there will be one thing which will always remain the same

“the care and love on you”

just want to say

i really miss u a lot…