The sun rises once again,
Awakening me from the calm of night before,
Where I could hear nothing but the sound of silence,
Where I could feel nothing but the breathing of my soul,
With the majesty of the morning sun,
Comes with it the sorrows of my life,
Where the realities of losing you haunts me,
Where the shadows of the past taunts me,
Cries of mine to you to return,
Falls upon the grounds below,
Like the autumn leaves which drops from the tree up above,
Like the droplets of rain from the clouds beyond reach,
The woe within my heart,
Hides between the shadows of the dark,
Praying for the night,
For it all to go away again.
When I lay and think, in my bed at night,
the day you’ll arrive, seems nowhere in sight.
I toss and I turn, dreaming of you,
opening my eye’s… checking if my dream came true.
It didn’t, again, and a tear starts to roll,
weeping quietly… my pillow I hold.
Many sleepless nights I’ve prayed for you, my love.
God touched my soul from heaven above
I’ve never felt this lucky, God did this for me.
That’s a question I asked each and every night.
He must think your special, Joy, and I know he’s right.
No other has made me feel so complete,
my whole life was lived, just so we could meet.
All these thoughts and more going through my head.
I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you… instead
It was not so long ago
when I thought I’d never meet someone like you.
Wrong was I, thinking I’m in control
Believing I’d never fall.
All my life I thought no one would
melt a heart like mine, a heart so cold,
a heart hardened by the past,
protected by shields so vast.
Slowly I was falling
without even knowing.
Only to find out too late
I have no choice but to accept my fate.
I could dream, I suppose
forever, I could hope
there will never be any ‘us’, that’s our destiny
so I wake up to reality.
I lied when I said
I didn’t love you,
that my feelings for you
not because I wanted to
but because I love you
and I still do.
I wouldn’t do a thing to hurt you
but I just have to let go.
I can’t hold on much longer
‘coz for us there’s no forever.
Kinda lose your sense of time
Cause the days don’t matter no more
All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside
You hope he knows you tried
thoughts Follow you around all day
And you wake up soaking wet
Cause between this world and eternity
There is a face you hope to see
You’ve been walking around in tears
No answers are there to get
You won’t ever be the same
Someone cries and you’re to blame
Struggling with a fight inside
Sorrow you’ll defeat
The picture you see it won’t disappear
Not unpleasant dreams or his voice you hear
You know where you’ve sent him
You sure know where you are
You’re trying to ease off
But you know you won’t get far
And now he’s up there
Sings like an angel
But you can’t hear those words..
Days Pass By Somehow..
But Nights Now Are A Wagon Of Pain.
Injuries May Heal With Time..
But Marks Will Always Remain.
Restless On My Comfortable Bed..
I Toss n Turn n Try To Sleep.
But Thoughts Are Bulking My Head..
And Have Formed A Huge Heap.
The Past Is Flashing Its Scorching Light Beams..
Tearing Me Apart…Breaking Me At The Seams.
The Darkness Of My Life Is More Visible In The Dark..
And Now I’m Trying To Give It A Voice…
Trying To Speak My Heart!
The only thing I can see through the window is thick rain drops piercing down on my conscious.
I stay in the middle of my bed curled up and trying to shield myself from the unknown.
I feel like it is never going to shine and never going to stop raining.
The night seems restless and everlasting.
A loud Roar of wind comes crashing down on my window.
I feel that it’s trying to get inside and take me away.
Why can’t this night end soon?!
I’m utterly alone in confining myself to this prison called home.
I’m in solitude that has despair written all around it.
There’s no where else to turn.
Desperate for this night to be over.
I’m daring the sun to come out,
But it doesn’t.
My ears catch every rain drop that falls, while my eyes are blinded shut by darkness.
I stay curled in my fragile state, wishing for this dreadful night to end.
There’s no peaked window that is not surrounded by the pitch black darkness of the night.
There’s no opening of light to which my skin feels warmth.
There’s no crystal clear view, only the solitary confinement which I’m in.
I have nothing else to do but sit and wait.
Quietly crunched in my bed, waiting for darkness to fade into the sunlight.
I will wait!
Trying to contain my thoughts in silence.
I must simply wait…..In hopes that I will not fade within the darkness.
The time has changed a lot….
The situation has changed a lot..
Can’t forget the days when
We used to laugh on silly things…
We used to share the most silent things and the most secret ones….
Neither you are same now nor me
but there will be one thing which will always remain the same
“the care and love on you”
just want to say
i really miss u a lot…