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Lose Myself

prisoner of love

What am i supposed to to?
after all that i have been through
when everything else had been banished
like a fog, it slowly creeped inside me once again!

can’t find the reason to keep holding on
don’t know how long i can keep going on
like this, hiding everything neatly tucked inside
smiling falsely and proving nothing.

change is inevitable,
thoughts of you now 
crawling inside me
like never before.

right when i thought
there’s nothing else left
seeds of love were
sown deep inside me!

once a barren land
your presence, your thoughts
transformed it into a garden
now teeming with life

now teeming with thoughts of you,
i try to find a reason to hold on,
to delay the inevitable!
when love has won the war,
i have lost the battle to you!
i am lost under your spell
and i am losing myself everyday!

My Love After U

The sun rises once again, 
Awakening me from the calm of night before, 
Where I could hear nothing but the sound of silence, 
Where I could feel nothing but the breathing of my soul,

With the majesty of the morning sun, 
Comes with it the sorrows of my life, 
Where the realities of losing you haunts me, 
Where the shadows of the past taunts me,

Cries of mine to you to return, 
Falls upon the grounds below, 
Like the autumn leaves which drops from the tree up above, 
Like the droplets of rain from the clouds beyond reach,

The woe within my heart, 
Hides between the shadows of the dark, 
Praying for the night, 
For it all to go away again.

A Tear On My Pillow

When I lay and think, in my bed at night, 
the day you’ll arrive, seems nowhere in sight. 
I toss and I turn, dreaming of you, 
opening my eye’s… checking if my dream came true. 
It didn’t, again, and a tear starts to roll, 
weeping quietly… my pillow I hold.

Many sleepless nights I’ve prayed for you, my love. 
God touched my soul from heaven above 
I’ve never felt this lucky, God did this for me. 
That’s a question I asked each and every night.

He must think your special, Joy, and I know he’s right. 
No other has made me feel so complete, 
my whole life was lived, just so we could meet. 
All these thoughts and more going through my head. 
I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you… instead

 

When It Rains

Rain drops falling in my head,
and never knowing when it will end.
Should I run for cover,
or let another rain drop fall in my head again?
I would love to dance in the rain,
and knowing somehow it’ll help erase the pain.
Sometimes when I’m all alone,
and I see rain drops are falling outside again.
There’s happiness that I feel because rain is here once again.
Some may feels gloomy when it rains
and some just want to feel it in their hand.
But me I just love it when rain drops falls into my face.
Oh the magic that rain brings, it makes you feel unique.
It may bring you sadness, wet feeling in toes and clothes
but I just see happiness when it rains.

Peace in Rain

Rain fell last night…quiet, gentle rain,

that tapped against my window pane,

and called me back from troubled sleep,

to soothe a heart too numb to weep.

 

My loneliness was too deep and real,

and like a wound that would not heal,

it throbbed within me, and I knew

my arms were empty without you.

 

But as I listened to the sound

of soft rain falling on the ground,

I heard your voice, tender and clear,

Call my name, and oh my dear,

 

I threw my window open wide,

to let the sweet rain rush inside.

It kissed my lips, my eyes, my hair,

and love, I knew that you were there.

 

Tears that my heart could not release

Fell down from Heaven, bringing peace.

Last night while gray clouds softly wept,

I held you in my arms and slept.

Darkened heart

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My darkened heart
Thought it’d never see the day
But your love began to part
The shadow looming gray

Our young love
Is like a bird and nest
In morning parts the dove
But flies back by night to rest

Every moment growing
Knowing not its bound
Neither of us knowing
The ship would run aground

But like the sun
Rising to light the earth
All too soon the day is done
Its death is in its birth

My poor heart
Finally saw the day
All too soon we had to part
And all that’s left is gray

 

Longing for the “us” again

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These days I´m walking the halls of imagination
and those hallways sometimes bring me back in those nights,
late hours and every night is long.so there is alot of time to shed a tear
and i don´t know why i still write to you.i don´t know why
i still breathe for you.
i sleep you.
i dream of you,
all is the same like before,just you are not there!
this feeling of yours,this love that anxiety,
i confess,
it doesn´t work to stop thinking and compare,
we were not like everybody else.
its not that it ´s not worth it,every sleepless night proves it.
but don´t think that i ask anything of you.
you said yourself,the time will change us
and life makes scenes and man makes mistakes.
Whose fault it is,it doesn´t matter.i don´t go further by foot.
i did anything, but it´s what i wanted to do and maybe i really shouldn´t have.
maybe i mustn’t have to treat you that way but the heart is blind
and i don´t feel sorry for it.even though it was hard.
maybe everyone is right,when they say it was a wrong way.
but to me only with you it was right like that.
i know, everything dissapears and this what we had stopped.
but you still remain-now and forever!
if it was to happen again,for us to meet
I won´t be the same like before.
it would maybe be better.
We learnt something perhaps from the previous relationship……..

Dreaming of u

When I close my eyes i dream of you

can’t sleep at night cause i wanna be with you.

don’t want to live,

don’t want to cry

without you by my side.

when i go to sleep at night,

i ask God to make my days bright.

i know he will do it

and i know it is true.

because he knows i only want to be with you.

i hear your voice inside my head.

i can imagine us together again.i

know it will happen.

I know it is true

because i asked God

if i can be with you.

i see you and i together again.

Holding hands and feeling the pain.

what a beautiful feeling……

i wish it were true…

………………but i am only dreaming – dreaming of you…….

Find my light

I’m hurt all the time.
I don’t want to cry for the way I feel inside.
I just want someone to hold me…
I’m alone in the dark, please try to find me.
If no one cares, I don’t see a point to go on.
Anyone find me! Anyone care!
I’m sorry, I just don’t want to be alone anymore.
I feel unheard and unseen. Depressed and weak.
No one cares and yet I’m always the sorry one.
Someone find me! I’m scared.
Please hold me until it all ends.
Just hold me that’s all I want.
I don’t want to be alone in the dark.
Just hold me as I start to disappear from the light.
Just hold me as I start to cry.
Just hold me so I wont be alone inside.
Just hold me so I don’t do something wrong.
Just hold me so tight, that for a moment I could feel the light….

The color of Pain

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If ever the weep of silence
That echoes inside my heart
You have heard,
If ever you have known
The loneliness that accompanies me,

If ever the color of pain
That tinges my tears crystal
You have seen,
If ever you have felt
How emptiness fills my heart –

Ask sky,
Ask sky what it feels to love!