It has never been like this
not quite sure of what i want
don’t know what more that i need to do,
feels like a soul devoid of life;
one moment my joy knew no bounds,
a new beginning is what i got,
a new meaning to a lonely existence,
i was happy;
as reality dawned on me,
i felt my happiness come crashing down,
all in one big thud, i wondered
if my luck was anything but bad;
i try to find a reason,
i try to find a cure,
i tried all that was possible,
but it feels as if my life has come to a standstill;
i don’t want to give up,
i don’t want to cave in so easily,
so i am desperately plotting my revenge
against a life that has become mundane;
(and take control of it once and for all
before i lose my sanity and question my very existence
The sun rises once again,
Awakening me from the calm of night before,
Where I could hear nothing but the sound of silence,
Where I could feel nothing but the breathing of my soul,
With the majesty of the morning sun,
Comes with it the sorrows of my life,
Where the realities of losing you haunts me,
Where the shadows of the past taunts me,
Cries of mine to you to return,
Falls upon the grounds below,
Like the autumn leaves which drops from the tree up above,
Like the droplets of rain from the clouds beyond reach,
The woe within my heart,
Hides between the shadows of the dark,
Praying for the night,
For it all to go away again.
When I lay and think, in my bed at night,
the day you’ll arrive, seems nowhere in sight.
I toss and I turn, dreaming of you,
opening my eye’s… checking if my dream came true.
It didn’t, again, and a tear starts to roll,
weeping quietly… my pillow I hold.
Many sleepless nights I’ve prayed for you, my love.
God touched my soul from heaven above
I’ve never felt this lucky, God did this for me.
That’s a question I asked each and every night.
He must think your special, Joy, and I know he’s right.
No other has made me feel so complete,
my whole life was lived, just so we could meet.
All these thoughts and more going through my head.
I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you… instead
Rain drops falling in my head,
and never knowing when it will end.
Should I run for cover,
or let another rain drop fall in my head again?
I would love to dance in the rain,
and knowing somehow it’ll help erase the pain.
Sometimes when I’m all alone,
and I see rain drops are falling outside again.
There’s happiness that I feel because rain is here once again.
Some may feels gloomy when it rains
and some just want to feel it in their hand.
But me I just love it when rain drops falls into my face.
Oh the magic that rain brings, it makes you feel unique.
It may bring you sadness, wet feeling in toes and clothes
but I just see happiness when it rains.
Thinking of the past days
i can tell u in many ways
my heart has not in it fears
but simple heart-breaking tears.
i cannot tell u how it is
those were the days i surely miss!!
stars that shone in my eyes
but now in wind as true lies
life is never favorable friend
never can i mend
the broken pieces of our friendship plate
no use of saying its too late
months and days have passed away
again in my heart a bright sun ray
talking about past days are useless and in vain
in the lonely streets i am searching for u again
days flow away my friend
no more feelings i can send
once again in the sands of the sea
I’ll be looking for the eyes that once watched me
I cried all night until morning came.
i’ll surely find the strength to start walking.
i guess the sun has risen to conceal my heart
because soon the darkness will certainly grow bright.
truly everyone wants to grant a wish but sometimes
it doesn’t go the way you want.
if i collect fragments of hope in the palm of my hand,
i can change them into wonderful joy.
My friends and loved ones give me courage
and i’m holding tight to those words
but the final answerone i must find by myself.
continuing forth for tomorrow.
my feelings are undefeated by the rainand passes through the flame.
i want to persist that strongly
and so someday
even when it seems everything is falling apart.
can’t sleep at night cause i wanna be with you.
don’t want to live,
don’t want to cry
without you by my side.
when i go to sleep at night,
i ask God to make my days bright.
i know he will do it
and i know it is true.
because he knows i only want to be with you.
i hear your voice inside my head.
i can imagine us together again.i
know it will happen.
I know it is true
because i asked God
if i can be with you.
i see you and i together again.
Holding hands and feeling the pain.
what a beautiful feeling……
i wish it were true…
………………but i am only dreaming – dreaming of you…….
I’m hurt all the time.
I don’t want to cry for the way I feel inside.
I just want someone to hold me…
I’m alone in the dark, please try to find me.
If no one cares, I don’t see a point to go on.
Anyone find me! Anyone care!
I’m sorry, I just don’t want to be alone anymore.
I feel unheard and unseen. Depressed and weak.
No one cares and yet I’m always the sorry one.
Someone find me! I’m scared.
Please hold me until it all ends.
Just hold me that’s all I want.
I don’t want to be alone in the dark.
Just hold me as I start to disappear from the light.
Just hold me as I start to cry.
Just hold me so I wont be alone inside.
Just hold me so I don’t do something wrong.
Just hold me so tight, that for a moment I could feel the light….
If ever the weep of silence
That echoes inside my heart
You have heard,
If ever you have known
The loneliness that accompanies me,
If ever the color of pain
That tinges my tears crystal
You have seen,
If ever you have felt
How emptiness fills my heart –
Ask sky what it feels to love!
Kinda lose your sense of time
Cause the days don’t matter no more
All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside
You hope he knows you tried
thoughts Follow you around all day
And you wake up soaking wet
Cause between this world and eternity
There is a face you hope to see
You’ve been walking around in tears
No answers are there to get
You won’t ever be the same
Someone cries and you’re to blame
Struggling with a fight inside
Sorrow you’ll defeat
The picture you see it won’t disappear
Not unpleasant dreams or his voice you hear
You know where you’ve sent him
You sure know where you are
You’re trying to ease off
But you know you won’t get far
And now he’s up there
Sings like an angel
But you can’t hear those words..
The time has changed a lot….
The situation has changed a lot..
Can’t forget the days when
We used to laugh on silly things…
We used to share the most silent things and the most secret ones….
Neither you are same now nor me
but there will be one thing which will always remain the same
“the care and love on you”
just want to say
i really miss u a lot…