What am i supposed to to?
after all that i have been through
when everything else had been banished
like a fog, it slowly creeped inside me once again!
can’t find the reason to keep holding on
don’t know how long i can keep going on
like this, hiding everything neatly tucked inside
smiling falsely and proving nothing.
change is inevitable,
thoughts of you now
crawling inside me
like never before.
right when i thought
there’s nothing else left
seeds of love were
sown deep inside me!
once a barren land
your presence, your thoughts
transformed it into a garden
now teeming with life
now teeming with thoughts of you,
i try to find a reason to hold on,
to delay the inevitable!
when love has won the war,
i have lost the battle to you!
i am lost under your spell
and i am losing myself everyday!
It has never been like this
not quite sure of what i want
don’t know what more that i need to do,
feels like a soul devoid of life;
one moment my joy knew no bounds,
a new beginning is what i got,
a new meaning to a lonely existence,
i was happy;
as reality dawned on me,
i felt my happiness come crashing down,
all in one big thud, i wondered
if my luck was anything but bad;
i try to find a reason,
i try to find a cure,
i tried all that was possible,
but it feels as if my life has come to a standstill;
i don’t want to give up,
i don’t want to cave in so easily,
so i am desperately plotting my revenge
against a life that has become mundane;
(and take control of it once and for all
before i lose my sanity and question my very existence
I sit here with a smile on my face,
I smile as I breathe in deep,
I smile as I close my eyes
and I smile all day long;
the sky is dark,
as the freezing winds
seep into my bones,
I sit here smiling silently cold and empty;
I wait here frozen in time,
with my dreams torn apart,
my heart encased in a tomb,
I smile to mask my true emotions;
smile is all that I do day in and day out,
the mask that I wear is so perfect,
one needs to come a lot closer,
to see the tears trickling down my eyes;
the days are long,
the nights longer still.
I try to find the light,
but find comfort only in the dark;
emotions swell inside,
walking on a broken path,
I look up for the rainbow
hoping that one day I will get off
this broken path and onto a new one;
Don’t know how to explain it
Can’t really put it into words
You’ve touched my life in so many ways
You never cease to amaze me.
I don’t know what the future holds
I can’t pretend that I do
I just know beyond a doubt
I always want you around.
Whether we stay the closest of friends
Or I become the love of your life
Or maybe even both occurs
As long as your in my life I can smile.
Something about you makes me smile
Not just with my mouth
And not just with my eyes
But all the way to my soul.
Thank you for what you are to me
For being who you are
And adding happiness to this life
And giving me a reason to smile.
It’s the middle of the night, my eyes stare into nothingness,
Hoping to find some light, peering into the vastly blackness,
Not sure what to do next, questions flooding my consciousness,
Tiny pins of needle pricking my heart, leaving me breathless.
Reality slowly creeping in, numbing me it is time to let go,
To move on away from you to some far place I dont know.
Loving you has not been easy neither is breaking up with you,
Knowing you have someone else tells me what I should do.
So many things left undone and words unspoken,
Dreams has been shattered, promises has been broken,
Years spent in sweet togetherness suddenly apart,
Time is not enough to mend my ailing heart.
Teach me how to be brave so I can live a life without you,
Place a soft tune in my head and a smile in my heart too,
Help me raise my chin up high so I can face the world again,
Hope flicker in my heart as I look into the future one more time.
Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
lost with you forever is were I want to be.
The way that I feel when you’re by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.
If I could be young once again
I would have sooner met you
and all that would have remained
is the love I have for you
If I could have just shown you
how much you mean to me
then I could have died happily
with the tears of joy in me
If I could have been your knight
brave and donned in shining armour
then I would have been your princess
and not as your friend anymore
If I could have been a stranger
and not as myself to you
then I might have had the courage
to say wholeheartedly I love you
If I could have lived my life
then you could have seen me through
because all that I had ever did
was for you to love me too
If I could have just seen tomorrow
I would have jumped ahead of time
because today it might have not ended
and today you might have been mine
The sun rises once again,
Awakening me from the calm of night before,
Where I could hear nothing but the sound of silence,
Where I could feel nothing but the breathing of my soul,
With the majesty of the morning sun,
Comes with it the sorrows of my life,
Where the realities of losing you haunts me,
Where the shadows of the past taunts me,
Cries of mine to you to return,
Falls upon the grounds below,
Like the autumn leaves which drops from the tree up above,
Like the droplets of rain from the clouds beyond reach,
The woe within my heart,
Hides between the shadows of the dark,
Praying for the night,
For it all to go away again.
When I lay and think, in my bed at night,
the day you’ll arrive, seems nowhere in sight.
I toss and I turn, dreaming of you,
opening my eye’s… checking if my dream came true.
It didn’t, again, and a tear starts to roll,
weeping quietly… my pillow I hold.
Many sleepless nights I’ve prayed for you, my love.
God touched my soul from heaven above
I’ve never felt this lucky, God did this for me.
That’s a question I asked each and every night.
He must think your special, Joy, and I know he’s right.
No other has made me feel so complete,
my whole life was lived, just so we could meet.
All these thoughts and more going through my head.
I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you… instead
You must be an angel without wings
To put up with all of my bothersome things
My anger, my love, my sometimes weary heart
What others hated about me you love those parts
I look at you and see a creation so divine
To think you have captured this heart of mine
How could I not love you with all that I am
You are the steady I need for my trembling hand
So honest, true and caring you are
My night in shining armour or my shooting star
You simply must be an angel without wings!
The moment I opened my heart and let you in
I saw this great love starting to begin.
I opened my eyes to a vision of you
I hope, I pray your feelings are true.
I have loved and I have paid the cost
And I have felt the pain of the love I lost.
But, now, I think I have truly found
An Angel who walks upon the ground.
You go beyond all limits for me
Just to show your love endlessly.
I could search my whole life through
And never find another ‘you’.
You are so special that I wanted you to know
I truly, completely love you so.
It was not so long ago
when I thought I’d never meet someone like you.
Wrong was I, thinking I’m in control
Believing I’d never fall.
All my life I thought no one would
melt a heart like mine, a heart so cold,
a heart hardened by the past,
protected by shields so vast.
Slowly I was falling
without even knowing.
Only to find out too late
I have no choice but to accept my fate.
I could dream, I suppose
forever, I could hope
there will never be any ‘us’, that’s our destiny
so I wake up to reality.
I lied when I said
I didn’t love you,
that my feelings for you
not because I wanted to
but because I love you
and I still do.
I wouldn’t do a thing to hurt you
but I just have to let go.
I can’t hold on much longer
‘coz for us there’s no forever.
You’re the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise.
You’re the last thing I think of
Each night when I close my eyes.
You’re in each thought I have
And every breath I take.
My feelings are growing stronger
With every move I make.
I want to prove I love you
But that’s the hardest part.
So, I’m giving all I have to give
To you… I give my heart.
Dark days become sunny
Frigid days become warm,
Rainy days become cloudless
And lightning got wiped away from the storm.
Rocks cry out,
And tree branches shout.
The stars fall
Right out of the sky.
The moon winks
And the sun went dry.
All because you said one thing
All because you said it true
All because you made me smile
All because you said I love you.
Somewhere in my dreams I hear your voice
Whispering gently….into thin air
At the edge of the mountain I close my eyes
Sensing your breathing…feeling you appear there
On the edge of my dreams I see your face
A twin soul……when we share eyes
At the edge of the mountain I catch my breath
Touching our finger tips…mouth goes dry
In the shadows of my dreams I taste your lips
So soft against mine like a warm rain
At the edge of the mountain my heart slows
Sharing our every breath….two hearts don’t refrain
In the deepest part of my dreams I feel your touch
Breathless….from the warmth of your skin
At the edge of the mountain I open my eyes
Seeing only clouds….feeling…. within
On the edge of my dreams is where I want to stay
It’s there…I’m forever in your arms…safe…sound
At the edge of the mountain I’ll remain breathless
For me…..no greater love will ever be found
Will you always be there on the edge of my dreams?
Will you always meet me to the edge of the mountain?
I will wait for you…be there for you….always.
Rest your head and close your eyes
Everything will be okay
For when you wake with the sweet sunrise
It will be a brand new day
Turn down the lights and pull me close
Feel only the beating of our hearts as we lay
For when you wake with the soft morning breeze
It will be a brand new day
Relax your body and caress my soft hair
Let all of life’s worries melt away
For when you wake with the warm summer scent
It will be a brand new day
Fall fast asleep and dream with me
Whisper “I love you, I’m here to stay”
For when we wake in each other’s arms
It will be a brand new day
I never knew there would be a better tomorrow
But you’ve come into my life and taken away all my sorrow
My days of sadness are a thing of the past
Because I have found true love at last
My days of emptiness are gone for good
Because you fill a void in my heart that you should
You’ve opened a window
You’ve shown me the light
And my love for you will continue to burn bright.
Rain drops falling in my head,
and never knowing when it will end.
Should I run for cover,
or let another rain drop fall in my head again?
I would love to dance in the rain,
and knowing somehow it’ll help erase the pain.
Sometimes when I’m all alone,
and I see rain drops are falling outside again.
There’s happiness that I feel because rain is here once again.
Some may feels gloomy when it rains
and some just want to feel it in their hand.
But me I just love it when rain drops falls into my face.
Oh the magic that rain brings, it makes you feel unique.
It may bring you sadness, wet feeling in toes and clothes
but I just see happiness when it rains.
I’ll never forget the way you looked
When I saw you there that night;
The way that you just seemed to glow
In the warm and gentle light.
If every time you crossed my mind
A drop of rain should fall,
We could swim on forever
In the greatest ocean of them all.
If every time was proud of you
A flower bloomed anew,
I could walk on eternally
In a garden next to you.
If every time I craved your lips
A Star was placed in sight,
Darkness would never fall upon
Our love of endless light.
If every time you touched my heart
A bell would somewhere chime,
We could listen ‘till the end of days
To the music that’s yours and mine.
My love and heart are yours…
The word Love, Love is something we all can enjoy, It is something we all can share, Only with that special someone, Who we all care about. But why are we scared of it? I don't know why, But if I wasn't, I would tell you every time, Rain or shine, Every time we're apart I nearly cry, Because this love inside of me is strong, There are no boundaries that it can hide, I want to scream it out, But I'm too shy, So I wait and watch wishing, That I had the courage to tell you, How much I feel inside. MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER DIE. This is to that special someone. I Love You.