Category Archives: Unshed Tears

Finding Me Again

We were together for many years
We became as one
It was like I had your blood running through my veins
We could read each others thoughts
Finish each others sentences 
Without saying a word 
There is so much I’d like to change
But I can’t turn back the hands of time
Your memory will always be apart of me and my heart
I still talk to you 
And wonder if you hear
Sometimes I can feel you near
Even in my dreams
My heart can’t say good-bye
For it’s afraid your memory will die
A part of my heart is with you
And it’s yours to keep
Now that you are gone
I’m left to stand alone..

Life Is At A Standstill

It has never been like this
not quite sure of what i want 
don’t know what more that i need to do, 
feels like a soul devoid of life;

one moment my joy knew no bounds, 
a new beginning is what i got, 
a new meaning to a lonely existence, 
i was happy;

as reality dawned on me, 
i felt my happiness come crashing down, 
all in one big thud, i wondered 
if my luck was anything but bad;

i try to find a reason, 
i try to find a cure, 
i tried all that was possible, 
but it feels as if my life has come to a standstill;

i don’t want to give up, 
i don’t want to cave in so easily, 
so i am desperately plotting my revenge 
against a life that has become mundane; 
(and take control of it once and for all 
before i lose my sanity and question my very existence

A Broken Smile

I sit here with a smile on my face, 
I smile as I breathe in deep, 
I smile as I close my eyes 
and I smile all day long;

the sky is dark, 
as the freezing winds 
seep into my bones, 
I sit here smiling silently cold and empty;

I wait here frozen in time, 
with my dreams torn apart, 
my heart encased in a tomb, 
I smile to mask my true emotions;

smile is all that I do day in and day out, 
the mask that I wear is so perfect, 
one needs to come a lot closer, 
to see the tears trickling down my eyes;

the days are long, 
the nights longer still. 
I try to find the light, 
but find comfort only in the dark;

emotions swell inside, 
walking on a broken path, 
I look up for the rainbow 
hoping that one day I will get off 
this broken path and onto a new one;

Teach Me

It’s the middle of the night, my eyes stare into nothingness, 
Hoping to find some light, peering into the vastly blackness, 
Not sure what to do next, questions flooding my consciousness, 
Tiny pins of needle pricking my heart, leaving me breathless.

Reality slowly creeping in, numbing me it is time to let go, 
To move on away from you to some far place I dont know. 
Loving you has not been easy neither is breaking up with you, 
Knowing you have someone else tells me what I should do.

So many things left undone and words unspoken, 
Dreams has been shattered, promises has been broken, 
Years spent in sweet togetherness suddenly apart, 
Time is not enough to mend my ailing heart.

Teach me how to be brave so I can live a life without you, 
Place a soft tune in my head and a smile in my heart too, 
Help me raise my chin up high so I can face the world again, 
Hope flicker in my heart as I look into the future one more time.

If I Could Turn Back Time

 

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If I could be young once again
I would have sooner met you
and all that would have remained
is the love I have for you

If I could have just shown you
how much you mean to me
then I could have died happily
with the tears of joy in me

If I could have been your knight
brave and donned in shining armour
then I would have been your princess
and not as your friend anymore

If I could have been a stranger
and not as myself to you
then I might have had the courage
to say wholeheartedly I love you

If I could have lived my life
then you could have seen me through
because all that I had ever did
was for you to love me too

If I could have just seen tomorrow
I would have jumped ahead of time
because today it might have not ended
and today you might have been mine 

My Love After U

The sun rises once again, 
Awakening me from the calm of night before, 
Where I could hear nothing but the sound of silence, 
Where I could feel nothing but the breathing of my soul,

With the majesty of the morning sun, 
Comes with it the sorrows of my life, 
Where the realities of losing you haunts me, 
Where the shadows of the past taunts me,

Cries of mine to you to return, 
Falls upon the grounds below, 
Like the autumn leaves which drops from the tree up above, 
Like the droplets of rain from the clouds beyond reach,

The woe within my heart, 
Hides between the shadows of the dark, 
Praying for the night, 
For it all to go away again.

A Tear On My Pillow

When I lay and think, in my bed at night, 
the day you’ll arrive, seems nowhere in sight. 
I toss and I turn, dreaming of you, 
opening my eye’s… checking if my dream came true. 
It didn’t, again, and a tear starts to roll, 
weeping quietly… my pillow I hold.

Many sleepless nights I’ve prayed for you, my love. 
God touched my soul from heaven above 
I’ve never felt this lucky, God did this for me. 
That’s a question I asked each and every night.

He must think your special, Joy, and I know he’s right. 
No other has made me feel so complete, 
my whole life was lived, just so we could meet. 
All these thoughts and more going through my head. 
I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you… instead

 

All My Life

It was not so long ago 
when I thought I’d never meet someone like you. 
Wrong was I, thinking I’m in control 
Believing I’d never fall.

All my life I thought no one would 
melt a heart like mine, a heart so cold, 
a heart hardened by the past, 
protected by shields so vast.

Slowly I was falling 
without even knowing. 
Only to find out too late 
I have no choice but to accept my fate.

I could dream, I suppose 
forever, I could hope 
there will never be any ‘us’, that’s our destiny 
so I wake up to reality.

I lied when I said 
I didn’t love you, 
that my feelings for you 
are through.

I lied 
not because I wanted to 
but because I love you 
and I still do.

I wouldn’t do a thing to hurt you 
but I just have to let go. 
I can’t hold on much longer 
‘coz for us there’s no forever.

When It Rains

Rain drops falling in my head,
and never knowing when it will end.
Should I run for cover,
or let another rain drop fall in my head again?
I would love to dance in the rain,
and knowing somehow it’ll help erase the pain.
Sometimes when I’m all alone,
and I see rain drops are falling outside again.
There’s happiness that I feel because rain is here once again.
Some may feels gloomy when it rains
and some just want to feel it in their hand.
But me I just love it when rain drops falls into my face.
Oh the magic that rain brings, it makes you feel unique.
It may bring you sadness, wet feeling in toes and clothes
but I just see happiness when it rains.

Peace in Rain

Rain fell last night…quiet, gentle rain,

that tapped against my window pane,

and called me back from troubled sleep,

to soothe a heart too numb to weep.

 

My loneliness was too deep and real,

and like a wound that would not heal,

it throbbed within me, and I knew

my arms were empty without you.

 

But as I listened to the sound

of soft rain falling on the ground,

I heard your voice, tender and clear,

Call my name, and oh my dear,

 

I threw my window open wide,

to let the sweet rain rush inside.

It kissed my lips, my eyes, my hair,

and love, I knew that you were there.

 

Tears that my heart could not release

Fell down from Heaven, bringing peace.

Last night while gray clouds softly wept,

I held you in my arms and slept.

Incomplete

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The grey sky looming above, 
rain drops still dripping down 
from the pregnant clouds above, 
we set out on our journey once again;

around and around we go 
in slow circles, moving 
to the beat of the thunder 
and rain that surrounds us;

as the droplets hit the ground, 
shattered realizations lay scattered 
reminding me nothing is same 
as it seems to be;

as another memory turns to dust 
i cut the lifeline that attaches me to the past 
and i shove it back into the depths 
where nothing will ever bring it back alive;

the rain does nothing to stop our journey, 
never forgetting, who we are 
we walk these streets of madness, 
knowing that,without each-other….. 
we are simply incomplete.


My other half

I appear whole on the outside
But within I am so broken
There’s a piece of me that’s been missing
My other half, my voice of reason

I try to clap but there’s only one hand
I try to run, but with one leg I dare not stand
My eyes are open, but I cannot see
Because my other half is not next to me

I reach out at nights but there’s no one to hold
I touch your side of bed and it feels so cold
I sit down to a meal but I can barely eat
Because the purpose of sharing has faced defeat

But I have faith that one day complete I will be
‘Cause my other half is out there searching for me
If only for a moment I can get him next to me
I will make sure my other half fits me perfectly.


Darkened heart

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My darkened heart
Thought it’d never see the day
But your love began to part
The shadow looming gray

Our young love
Is like a bird and nest
In morning parts the dove
But flies back by night to rest

Every moment growing
Knowing not its bound
Neither of us knowing
The ship would run aground

But like the sun
Rising to light the earth
All too soon the day is done
Its death is in its birth

My poor heart
Finally saw the day
All too soon we had to part
And all that’s left is gray

 

I am searching for u again

Thinking of the past days

i can tell u in many ways

my heart has not in it fears

but simple heart-breaking tears.

i cannot tell u how it is

those were the days i surely miss!!

stars that shone in my eyes

but now in wind as true lies

life is never favorable friend

never can i mend

the broken pieces of our friendship plate

no use of saying its too late

months and days have passed away

again in my heart a bright sun ray

talking about past days are useless and in vain

in the lonely streets i am searching for u again

days flow away my friend

no more feelings i can send

once again in the sands of the sea

I’ll be looking for the eyes that once watched me


Longing for the “us” again

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These days I´m walking the halls of imagination
and those hallways sometimes bring me back in those nights,
late hours and every night is long.so there is alot of time to shed a tear
and i don´t know why i still write to you.i don´t know why
i still breathe for you.
i sleep you.
i dream of you,
all is the same like before,just you are not there!
this feeling of yours,this love that anxiety,
i confess,
it doesn´t work to stop thinking and compare,
we were not like everybody else.
its not that it ´s not worth it,every sleepless night proves it.
but don´t think that i ask anything of you.
you said yourself,the time will change us
and life makes scenes and man makes mistakes.
Whose fault it is,it doesn´t matter.i don´t go further by foot.
i did anything, but it´s what i wanted to do and maybe i really shouldn´t have.
maybe i mustn’t have to treat you that way but the heart is blind
and i don´t feel sorry for it.even though it was hard.
maybe everyone is right,when they say it was a wrong way.
but to me only with you it was right like that.
i know, everything dissapears and this what we had stopped.
but you still remain-now and forever!
if it was to happen again,for us to meet
I won´t be the same like before.
it would maybe be better.
We learnt something perhaps from the previous relationship……..

Falling apart

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I cried all night until morning came.

i’ll surely find the strength to start walking.

i guess the sun has risen to conceal my heart

because soon the darkness will certainly grow bright.

truly everyone wants to grant a wish but sometimes

it doesn’t go the way you want.

if i collect fragments of hope in the palm of my hand,

i can change them into wonderful joy.

My friends and loved ones give me courage

and i’m holding tight to those words

but the final answerone i must find by myself.

continuing forth for tomorrow.

my feelings are undefeated by the rainand passes through the flame.

i want to persist that strongly

and so someday

even when it seems everything is falling apart.

Dreaming of u

When I close my eyes i dream of you

can’t sleep at night cause i wanna be with you.

don’t want to live,

don’t want to cry

without you by my side.

when i go to sleep at night,

i ask God to make my days bright.

i know he will do it

and i know it is true.

because he knows i only want to be with you.

i hear your voice inside my head.

i can imagine us together again.i

know it will happen.

I know it is true

because i asked God

if i can be with you.

i see you and i together again.

Holding hands and feeling the pain.

what a beautiful feeling……

i wish it were true…

………………but i am only dreaming – dreaming of you…….

Till i find u

Stripped of my comfort,
I have no place to sleep.
Confused with anxiety,
I can only weep.

Why did this happen?
Oh why is it me?
I don’t know what to do,
This time, I can’t flee.

With no where to run,
I think I’ll lay down.
Only for a bit,
Until the day I’m found.

Find my light

I’m hurt all the time.
I don’t want to cry for the way I feel inside.
I just want someone to hold me…
I’m alone in the dark, please try to find me.
If no one cares, I don’t see a point to go on.
Anyone find me! Anyone care!
I’m sorry, I just don’t want to be alone anymore.
I feel unheard and unseen. Depressed and weak.
No one cares and yet I’m always the sorry one.
Someone find me! I’m scared.
Please hold me until it all ends.
Just hold me that’s all I want.
I don’t want to be alone in the dark.
Just hold me as I start to disappear from the light.
Just hold me as I start to cry.
Just hold me so I wont be alone inside.
Just hold me so I don’t do something wrong.
Just hold me so tight, that for a moment I could feel the light….

The color of Pain

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If ever the weep of silence
That echoes inside my heart
You have heard,
If ever you have known
The loneliness that accompanies me,

If ever the color of pain
That tinges my tears crystal
You have seen,
If ever you have felt
How emptiness fills my heart –

Ask sky,
Ask sky what it feels to love!